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Maybe-not-really-20-something-anymore from Norway who likes to scrapbook and take photos documentarystyle and dreams of photojournalism when not working as a photojournalist and that's pretty much what this blog is about. And I like it this way.



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~~ Happy & Scared ~~

Posted by Ania On Thursday, October 26, 2006
Not much to say about the happy page.....listed some happy words on the journalingstamp on the mainpage, listed some scrappingstuff that makes me happy (scrappingstuff easily makes me happy anyways btw :P) on a tag and added my love for sheep in another. Yep. Sheep. That's right. Haha...every time I drive past some sheep I *HAVE* to say "baaaah" and I love the sound of "sheep" (sævver!)..just pronouncing it makes me happy!! :D

The scared page....well....I'm glad I got it written down, but it feels very very ...naked...exposing my inner fears just like that..."what scares me most is that I won't be able to protect my children from what I've given them: their exotic look. I'm afraid that they might experience racism and unmotivated violence because of that. I am afraid that Adrian might be more exposed to violence because of his gender. I don't want to outlive my children. I don't want the love between me and Simen to end." Do I have any reason to be afraid? I don't know. I can honestly say that I haven't experienced racism or anything like that myself. Not that I can remember anyways. Being adopted I've most likely had a different experience than foregin children maybe hanging more around other foreginers kinda. I recall an episode when I was like fourteen and I was bowling with some friends of mine, and there were some asian guys there staring at me for a long while and stuff and then finally asking me why I was hanging around with them - the "white" people....and I was like uh?? They're my friends? ...because I had never thought about it that way... But. If something would happen to my children, I know I won't be able to not wonder wheter it happened because of a coincidence or because of their look. And then it'd be my fault. That scares me.

I don't want to outlive my children. Children are not supposed to die before their parents! That's just horrible and I don't wanna think about it but - I gotta admit - sometimes I do even though I know it's too silly wondering about all the possible things that might and might not happen.

Statistically it's like, half the people who marries gets divorced. Which will it be for me and Simen? I hope we won't ever have to experience that - the love won't last-part, but uh, the stupid numbers! No wonder I'm scared.
Oh. I also wrote about my fear for spiders and yucky bugs on a tag :P No picture there - are you crazy!? :p TFL&reading :P
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13 intriguing feedbacks to '~~ Happy & Scared ~~'

  1. Anonymous Said,
    http://aniia.blogspot.com/2006/10/happy-scared.html?showComment=1161821700000#c116182172592641055'> 2:15 AM

    Wow!! Excellent pages - very moving!!

     

  2. _Kine Said,
    http://aniia.blogspot.com/2006/10/happy-scared.html?showComment=1161840900000#c116184095932293937'> 7:35 AM

    Så kule sider! Liker veldig godt "scared"-sidene dine. Bruken av sort/hvitt bilder og kraft-kartong er helt super! Og teksten på de svisjete linjene er parfait!!

     

  3. http://aniia.blogspot.com/2006/10/happy-scared.html?showComment=1161842160000#c116184220042196631'> 7:56 AM

    Så utrolig mye herlig du har laget de siste dagene. Både LO av barna og LO om deg selv er kjmepflotte. Du er så produktiv at jeg blir helt misunnelig...

    Kan jeg spørre deg hvor du har kjøpt de Journalstempelene?????
    De står nemlig aller øverst på min "MÅ HA" liste, men de eneste jeg finner ut som har de er "2Peas", og de har vært usolgt i lengere tid.....*Grrrrr*

     

  4. Rita Said,
    http://aniia.blogspot.com/2006/10/happy-scared.html?showComment=1161847740000#c116184775822686541'> 9:29 AM

    Sidene dine er bare helt utrolig bra. Fikk jo kikket litt på Scared siden i helgen, og jeg skjønner at du synes det var tøft å gå igjennom hva som gjør deg redd. Det blir jo veldig virkelig når man får det ned på papiret. Følte et på samme måte med TRIST siden, og etter den har jeg ikke orket helt å gå på REDD ennå. Kjenner meg godt igjen i mye av det du skriver på siden din, og det var litt spesiellt å se mye av det jeg har gått å tenkt - på trykk. Takk for at du deler de flotte sidene dine, Ania

     

  5. Kathrine Said,
    http://aniia.blogspot.com/2006/10/happy-scared.html?showComment=1161847800000#c116184785405601370'> 9:30 AM

    Å så flotte sidene dine ble Ania!
    Skikkelig altså.

    Jeg ble litt :O for jeg ser at vi har hatt noen av de samme ideene.

     

  6. Anonymous Said,
    http://aniia.blogspot.com/2006/10/happy-scared.html?showComment=1161848880000#c116184893439438166'> 9:48 AM

    Wow - nydelige sider!
    Blir spennende å følge med videre på hva du lager!
    Og så må jeg bare le litt av gresskarene! *hihi* Jeg har og tenkt å kjøpe - selvfølgelig på grunn av de kule bildene jeg kan ta. ;o)

     

  7. Ellen Said,
    http://aniia.blogspot.com/2006/10/happy-scared.html?showComment=1161849120000#c116184915404643143'> 9:52 AM

    Fine sider du har laga! Og inspirerende. Jeg ligger litt etter i løypa, men jeg koser meg med prosjektet! (Men gruer meg litt til 'sint' og 'redd'-sidene...)

     

  8. Nat Said,
    http://aniia.blogspot.com/2006/10/happy-scared.html?showComment=1161855060000#c116185511791858669'> 11:31 AM

    you totally rock this book - love your style esp. with the scared page and your thoughts!!! Love it!

     

  9. Anonymous Said,
    http://aniia.blogspot.com/2006/10/happy-scared.html?showComment=1161872880000#c116187293361773681'> 4:28 PM

    Your pages are beautiful, thank
    you for sharing your lovely work.

    Donna B.

     

  10. beshka Said,
    http://aniia.blogspot.com/2006/10/happy-scared.html?showComment=1161875340000#c116187536101015911'> 5:09 PM

    your pages are phenomenal! love love love them!!!!!! :)

     

  11. Dinnamor Said,
    http://aniia.blogspot.com/2006/10/happy-scared.html?showComment=1161893640000#c116189366648349388'> 10:14 PM

    Dette blir jo knallbra! Utrolig flotte sider du har laget. Skummelt det å gå så inn på ting, men det er godt å gjøre det av og til også. Og du er så kreativ og flink at det popper opp det ene flotte etter det andre! Jeg bare shopper jeg ;)

     

  12. Anette S Said,
    http://aniia.blogspot.com/2006/10/happy-scared.html?showComment=1161948660000#c116194866940939258'> 1:31 PM

    Ah! Boken din blir så bra! Du er så dyktig!

     

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